кто тут неудачник? я неудачник

хотя даже плакала не так уж и долго

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про снег я сначала прочитала в своем избранном, а потом только увидела в окне.
может, стоит разбить свой компьютер?))

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как понять, достаточно или нет ты стараешься? и в том ли направлении ты вообще стараешься?

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всегда после наступления 18ти кажется, что все вдруг резко потеряло всякий смысл?

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все было очень круто, мои потрясающие друзья даже после моих "не хочу ничего праздновать" устроили мне прекрасный праздник
спасибо за оооочень веселую ночь, за офигенные подарки, за столько приятных слов) спасибо моим одноклассникам, которые устроили мне сюрприз и вытащили меня в боулинг) спасибо всем за миллион поздравлений)
я так люблю вас всех

оу ее



за фотографии спасибо  goddamn peter pan или кто там еще хватал фотоаппарат)

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восемнадцать!

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go Obama!!! еееееее

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давно ничего такого прекрасного не видела
может, это из-за температуры, но слезы текли)

Жившие (дело было в конце 1960-х годов) в Лондоне австралийцы Энтони Бурк и Джон Рендалл вырастили львенка-сироту по имени Кристиан. Задачей приемных родителей была подготовка льва к возвращению к нормальной жизни в естественных условиях. История выращивания питомца интересна сама по себе. Но кульминацией этой эпопеи стала встреча “родителей” с своим сынишкой спустя год после того, как Кристиана выпустили на волю. Кристиан, вопреки прогнозам скептиков, не забыл своих воспитателей и проявил при встрече с Энтони и Джоном невероятную радость. Кадры свидания с Кристианом стали символом лучших отношений животных и человека.

история на английском

Christian was a lion purchased in 1969 by two Australians living in London, John Rendall and Anthony 'Ace' Bourke (sometimes erroneously cited as Ace Berg) from Harrods department store. They had discovered him for sale in Harrods' exotic pets department and, concerned for his conditions and fate, decided to buy him.

Rendall, Bourke and their girlfriends Jennifer Mary and Unity Jones cared for the lion until it was a year old. Christian's increasing size and the cost of looking after him led them to the realization that they could not keep him in London for much longer. The solution came when Bill Travers and Virginia McKenna, stars of the film Born Free, visited Rendall and Bourke's furniture shop, where Christian spent his days. They suggested that they ask the assistance of George Adamson, the Kenyan conservationist who, together with his wife Joy, was the subject of their movie. Adamson agreed to help them rehabilitate Christian into the wild at his compound at Kora National Reserve.

Adamson slowly introduced Christian to an older lion 'Boy' and subsequently to a female cub Katiana in order to form the nucleus of a new pride. Tragedy struck several times: Katiana was possibly devoured by crocodiles at a watering hole. Another female was killed by wild lions. Boy was so injured that he lost his ability to socialize with other lions and humans, and was shot through the heart by Adamson after fatally wounding a man.

That left Christian as the only surviving member of the original pride.

Adamson continued his work, and over the course of a year the pride established itself in the region around Kora, with Christian as the head of the pride started by Boy.

When Rendall & Bourke were informed by Adamson of the successful result in 1971, they traveled to Kenya to pay the visit to Christian that was filmed in the documentary The Lion at World's End. According to the documentary, Adamson warned Rendall and Bourke that Christian may not remember them, but the film shows a first cautious lion suddenly leaping onto the two men, wrapping his arms on their shoulders and licking their faces. The documentary also shows the female lions, Mona and Lisa, and a foster cub named Supercub welcoming the two men because of the influence of Christian.

Rendall details a final reunion that occurred in 1974. By this time Christian was successfully defending his own pride and had cubs of his own -- and he was about twice the size he was in the 1971 reunion video. Adamson warned them that it would most likely be a wasted trip as he had not seen Christian's pride for nine months. However they discovered when they reached Kora that Christian and his pride had returned to Adamson's compound the day before their arrival.

Rendall describes the visit he, Bourke, and George Adamson made: "We called him and he stood up and started to walk towards us very slowly. Then, as if he had become convinced it was us, he ran towards us, threw himself on to us, knocked us over, knocked George over and hugged us, like he used to, with his paws on our shoulders."

The reunion lasted until the next morning when everyone went to bed. According to Rendall that was the last anyone saw of Christian.

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лучше попробовать на следующий год - самая умная моя мысль за последнее время

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че-то люди в последнее время либо странные, либо дерьмо

(а страна просто всегда дерьмо)

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я тупица! не 2000 знаков, а 2000 слов! два эссе по 2000 слов! это же страниц шесть писать! на французском! ааааа, о чем же я раньше думала

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St. Anne's, черт, немного не то, что я хотела
но сама виновата

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I want to be six again

I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult, in order to accept the responsibilities of a 6 year old. The tax base is lower. I want to be six again.

I want to go to McDonald's and think it's the best place in the world to eat.

I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make waves with rocks.

I want to think M&Ms are better than money, because you can eat them.

I want to stay up on Christmas Eve waiting to hear Santa and Rudolph on the roof.

I long for the days when life was simple. When all you knew were your colors, the addition tables and simple nursery rhymes, but it didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care.

I want to go to school and have snack time, play time, gym and field trips.

I want to be happy, because I don't know what should make me upset.

I want to think the world is fair and everyone in it is honest and good. I want to believe that anything is possible.

Sometime, while I was maturing, I learned too much. I learned of nuclear weapons, prejudice, starving and abused kids, lies, unhappy marriages, illness, pain and mortality.

I want to be six again.

I want to think that everyone, including myself, will live forever, because I don't know the concept of death.

I want to be oblivious to the complexity of life and be overly excited by the little things again.

I want television to be something I watch for fun, not something used for escape from the things I should be doing.

I want to live knowing the little things that I find exciting will always make me as happy as when I first learned them.

I want to be six again.

I remember not seeing the world as a whole, but rather being aware of only the things that directly concerned me.

I want to be naive enough to think that if I'm happy, so is everyone else.

I want to walk down the beach and think only of the sand beneath my feet and the possibility of finding that blue piece of sea glass I'm looking for.

I want to spend my afternoons climbing trees and riding my bike, letting the grownups worry about time, the dentist and how to find the money to fix the old car.

I want to wonder what I'll do when I grow up and what I'll be, who I'll be and not worry about what I'll do if this doesn't work out.

I want that time back.

I want to use it now as an escape, so that when my computer crashes, or I have a mountain of paperwork, or two depressed friends, or bittersweet memories of times gone by, or second thoughts about so many things, I can travel back and build a snowman, without thinking about anything except whether the snow sticks together and what I can possibly use for the snowman's mouth.

I want to be six again.

(с)

@музыка: Stereophonics - Climbing the Wall

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ненавижу интернет!

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я начала учиться!

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все, я больше не расстраиваюсь. или, по крайней мере, больше никому об этом не говорю.

будем праздновать день рождения всю ночь с субботы на воскресенье, в воскресенье может повезет и мы попадем на "Подмену" на амфесте с Анджелиной Джоли и Джоном Малковичем, в понедельник приедет моя любовь, 21 октября - на концерт Сержа Генсбура с его "Je t'aime... moi non plus" (перепетой впоследствии Брайном Молко и Азией Ардженто), все круто, с чего мне вообще расстраиваться?

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обязательно посмотреть

- The curious case of Benjamin Button
- Changelling (в это воскресенье!)
- The Duchess
- Boy in the stripped pyjamas
- Local color
- Have dreams, will travel (HQ!)
- New York, I love you
- Black balloon
- W.
- Frontrunners
- Proud american
- The world unseen 2007
- Choose Connor
- The Elephant King
- Twillight
- Australia

что-то меня стали интересовать американские фильмы о политике

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